I’ve been feeling jaded for years now. The things I once enjoyed don’t excite me anymore. I wanted to find a new hobby - gym, cooking etc. but I back out every time. I was a people-person, now, I don’t even want to see people. I eat until I can barely swallow. sometimes, I don’t even want to eat. I sleep late, not that I want to, I just couldn’t then go on about my day with 2-4 hours of sleep.
I don’t know when this started. Send help
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I’m sorry to hear that you’re struggling three days into the new year. I first want to say that as we grow older, we often change and evolve into new versions of ourselves than may be vastly different from older versions of ourselves. As such, it’s normal for us to grow out of and into new things like hobbies, personalities, and preferences.
However, it seems that while you may have grown out of some old hobbies, you’re finding it difficult to grow into some new ones. There are a lot of different reasons on why that may be. It could be an issue with energy; perhaps you are too tired after work to invest in anything new. It could also have something to do with motivation; maybe you just have not found the right hobby or activity that really piques your interest. It could be a whole host of different reasons. While asking for help here is a good first step, it might be a good idea to speak with a mental health professional about these concerns.
Until then though, my suggestion is if you want to get into something new, it might be helpful to do it with a friend. Sometimes what we need to be able to do new things in life is having others encourage us to do so. I know that you don’t want to see people, and that might be a problem in it of itself, but even the most introverted of us still need some social interaction. Find someone you trust, someone you might feel safe with, and see if they want to hangout and do something together.
Hope this was helpful. 
Hi @Dan! Thanks for this. I’ll try that with a friend.
Another thing, I’ve lost interest in giving a “f” to most of the things. Like I’m not as sympathetic and empathetic like before. If things go my way, or even against me, “oh ito nanaman” “as expected” “okay” - these are most of my responses to them then go on my way. If it negatively affects me, I just accept it, then move on. If I have problems, i don’t really care about them anymore like “come what may”. I don’t even cry anymore even if sometimes I feel like crying.
This is probably part of growing. I’m 30 years old, I never planned where I am today. Never did my plans go my way. I’m sailing into a vast ocean accepting where the tide leads me.
@intotheunknown as someone who is north of 30, I can attest to giving less shits the older we get 
I think a good question for you to try and explore is, “what’s important to me right now?” Is it your career? Is it your health? Your relationships? Your peace of mind?
What you need to understand about answering this question is 1) there is no wrong answer; this is a personal question that everyone will have subjective responses to, 2) this answer can and does change as life goes on; as we continue to live, our priorities and perspectives change which then can and does affect what we value, and 3) if you’re first response to this question is, “I don’t know,” that’s okay, don’t beat yourself up about it; not knowing is normal since we’re all imperfect human beings. What is important though is not being stuck in not knowing; if you don’t know, then make attempts to figure it out. This is an example of how the journey is just as important as the destination.
I feel like you would benefit from more structured feedback and exploration of your goals and values. So when you can, maybe book a session with a psychologist and see if that helps clarify more things for you.
you just need to keep on trying each day, getting up each morning make movements dance to the music, making yourself eat & drink water each day… just try without enormous ruminations… book a session with us too will really help… 
